Unfortunately I have always been a coward when it comes to my happiness. I decided to bail on an interview for the librarian/design support position. It’s a wonderful opportunity in an established company but I don’t think I can handle the pressure of adapting to the environment especially with my social anxiety issues. I’m going to continue with my assistant kindergarten teacher stint. It’s amazing how scared I was when I first started out (I still am terrified by the prospect of the parents-teachers conference and the very extrovert nature of the job) but the children are the very reasons why I’m choosing to stay. Also, it’s rather ironic that I am an assistant teacher when I’ve rejected various teaching jobs a couple of times so maybe I am meant for this. I still dread taking another new diploma but since K is doing the same, maybe it will turn out to be okay Insyallah.